I Have Little Answers.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that my life is strategically mapped out somewhere in my brain, carefully locked up, releasing information, ideas, and plans only when needed; not any sooner or later.

I believe that there are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The “failed” experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately “work.” Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson. Learning lessons does not end. There’s no part of life that doesn’t contain its lessons. If you’re alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned. There is no better a place than “here.” When your “there” has become a “here”, you will simply obtain another “there” that will again look better than “here. What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.Your answers lie within you. The answers to life’s questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

Its hard for all this to process sometimes, with all the crazy things that seem to be happening to me and to the people I love I wonder if sometimes there really are no answers and that life is just a big game that plays with my emotions on a constant basis. I find myself questioning a lot of things lately and finding no answers, well the answers haven't found me yet. I can't open myself up and sometimes it bothers me, but thats just how I am. I'm always leaving and finding somewhere new to be. I can't seem to stay in one place for to long. I'm restless.

I've had a few close people to me and my family is included in that mix. I don't know what I would do without them. They are the most important thing to me. I was blessed to meet someone during my first year of college that is so amazing and always there for me. She was one of the first person I truly let in to my life and she in turn let me into hers. She is very important to me and although she is far away and going through so much she is always there for me to text or call or whatever.

I don't why I keep second guessing myself about things usually I'm a go get it and if it doesn't work out well I'll cross that bridge when I get there. Lately I keep hearing the voice in my head telling me to wait it out or to hold out or to be cautious. And I'm at the point in my life where I'm ready to say screw it throw caution to the wind and just do everything I want to do.

But enough of my deep thought

I start my summer classes in approximately 5 hours... yep :)

I am registered for classes for the fall, my fasfa is complete, my housing is complete, and I head down there for my transfer orientation in July its pretty exciting and I cannot wait for August! I am scheduling meeting with my advisor and the softball coach. Its intense but I am so so ready!